yearning for the day to come, yet fearing for the days after. 
come on let's get hold of it, and not disappointing yourself anymore.
the start of another journey (:

What is it about life that we so often take it for granted?
Why is it that we constantly live in pain?
Why is it that we cannot forgive and forget?


If we are given a second chance in life, will we change to remedy the past mistakes?
Are we brave enough? Or are we happy to live in regret?
A great film about love, hope and forgiveness.

Title: 천국의 우편 배달부 / Heaven’s Postman   



I've wanted to watch this film for ages, and it turned out to be better than I originally thought it would be. My main reason to watch this film is definitely because of Han Hyo Joo (not jaejoong, unlike you girls out there), and I'm pleasantly surprised that the film has so much meaning in it. I shall not elaborate anymore, go watch it if you want.

For the past few days Facebook has been flooded with photos from the juniors' graduation day, which made me felt really nostalgic, can't believe that it's been already a year since I was there receiving my own Hwa Chong bear, wearing those leather shoes and donning the hwachong tie for the very last time. It shows how ironic my life now is, time in camp is passing so slowly, yet time outside is never waiting for us, moving on everyday, every second.

Gah, another few hours to booking in. I guess I'm starting to get used to it. Maybe.

10.10.10
another weekend almost over, yet another long week ahead to conquer.
Only spent 3 hours out of home today, yet today was a very fulfilling day. It's about how you spent your day really, this is where the term quality over quantity comes into play, if every weekend can be spent doing meaningful and useful stuffs, one can actually achieve a lot within that short time frame.
everything around us has a "cause-effect", "pros and cons". it's determined by which party or which component you want more, the decison is usually yours to make and of course you have to bear the consequences by yourself. i missed my bmt/scs section outing yesterday (ok to be honest i've not gone for any) and i don't regret it because everything about the outing do not fit into my personal aim and plans at all, which is to save up, spend more time with my family etc. consequence? i'm nowhere close with them and i don't plan on changing the situation at all. Loner? that's not exactly true, it just happen that this isn't the group i want to be close with.
i like being alone at night, the night just calms me down, allowing everything to settle down. like walking along the streets along, watching the cars zoom by, hearing the sound of the insects. sometimes it may be a lonely bus ride home, sometimes it may be a slow stroll back home from lot one, random thoughts and messy ideas are then allowed to be settled...

pardon for the incoherent and random post, suits what i am now though.

i don't like sundays, because it's the day before monday and i hate monday. like since young, it's always dreadful to wake up on a sunday morning where you will realise "oh gosh, tomorrow's monday again". sundays are supposed to be fun, supposed to be eventful where you catch up with your family and friends on a day out, or simply stay at home to recharge for the week ahead. monday just likes to come and spoil everything.

160 days gone, a lot more coming ahead. To be honest I don't really know what happened over the last 160 days, I just pray that the next 500 over days will be a smooth sailing one, which I certainly don't believe so though. There's so much more out there for me after that, so i want to stay healthy, stay safe and stay sane, or try to at least. The chance of me going mad is as high as the K2, but i really hope i won't (:

it's 3rd oct already, time to wake up (:

seems like everything has more or less settled down for the moment, still lots of unconfirmed details and problems, but that's for three months later. for now... it's time to take a break and let it heal.
i miss playing basketball, those days where we get to play no matter rain or shine. watching others play while you are unable to do so makes things worse >.< rewind back to high school and college days, playing basketball was perhaps the most relaxing activity out of all. nothing beats a fun and retarded game with the OAC peeps, or an intense and competitive game with the basketball peeps. even in competition, the pressure and the stress brings out the best/the worst out of a player... i wonder when is the next time i'll get to play again.

F1 yesterday was awesome! I wasn't in awe of how fast a F1 car can go, or who's going to win the race today, but more of the fact of how beautiful Singapore is. Standing beside the esplanade and looking across the waters of Marina Bay, all I could say is WOW, especially with the Marina Bay Sands now in place. Other than that F1 was still a great experience, partly because we found a better spot than last year, although I cannot figure out how i managed to fall asleep when over 20 racing cars zoomed right across me, perhaps i'm well trained from sleeping while others do their live firing xD

another week ahead, long and mundane, at least there's a half day off-in-lieu on friday to look forward to ((:

did nothing much for the whole week, yet i'm feeling so exhausted mentally, as if i've just went through another round of A Levels, perhaps it's the uncertainty that is draining me, or perhaps it's the mundane life inside that's affecting me so much. really hope the verdict will be out this coming tueday, at least let me know what happened, instead of me making pointless assumptions ><

of friendships and memories
under the moonlight
never truely understood the lyrics till you left school
how amazing the spirit is still so strong
that's why i'm still missing school
so much